No Longer Happy

I'm no longer happy with what I'm doing any more. I do not have the passion for it. However, in everyone's opinion it is a good a big company accompany with potential in developing my career path. Shall I stay on just because of everyone or I do something I am passionate of?

3 months

Well, life have been hectic for me for the past 3 months. Working life in Unilever is stressful coupled with load of reports to submit with datelines as well plus meetings and meeting one after another. No life besides work.. Sad.

No more going to gym, just work...

I had been working from morning to 9 or 10pm latest.
I had taken mcs for at least 4 to 5 days for the passed 3 months.
Sad, isn't it.

Anxiety breakdown. Mild depression seizure. Sigh....

I want my life back!!

1st day of work!

I started work on the 1st of April, yeap it was April Fool's Day.

Guess what, my new colleagues pull a prank on me by calling each other different names. I only realised it after lunch...

Another thing was, they placed 3 bets on me... 1st will I be wearing pants or skirt, the second was how old am I and the last one is am I single or married... Some win and some looses....

Haha... wacky colleagues I have here... overstressed I guess.

Recap in my last work

Well, this one of the things that I wanted to do during my transition to a new job. I wanted a list of all the reviews and some contests that I had done for my ex company. To all my food bloggers who had agreed to eat at the restaurant thank you all. It's for my memoirs..

From the most recent reviews:-

1. http://yilinglim.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-steamboat-restaurant.html
2. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant.html
3. http://www.suanie.net/2009/03/16/coca-steamboat-meal/
4. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-rm-150-contest-winners.html
5. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/01/contest-3-pairs-of-coca-steamboat-set-meal-for-two-worth-rm-150-each-up-for-grabs.html
6. http://www.suanie.net/2009/01/15/coca-restaurant-cny-giveaway-win-a-steamboat-set-meal-for-2-worth-rm150/
7. http://bigboysoven.blogspot.com/2009/03/coca-restaurant-subang-parade-discovery.html
8. http://thenomadgourmand.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-more-than-just.html
9. http://www.foodpoi.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-at-subang-parade-thai-food/
10. http://www.foodstreet.com.my/food-street/bpage.s?by=Coca+Restaurant&bid=112
11. http://alilfatmonkey.blogspot.com/search/label/Subang%20Jaya
12. http://drownedglassdua.blogspot.com/2008/11/stuffed-pig-and-things-they-stuffed-me.html
13. http://ipohwav3.wordpress.com/2008/11/27/coca-steamboat-subang-parade/
14. http://kampungboycitygal.com/?p=414
15. http://cumidanciki.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-means-kekou-means-appetizing_29.html
16. http://timothytiah.blogspot.com/2008/09/when-you-eat-with-bloggers.html
17. http://kyspeaks.com/2008/09/08/ky-eats-restaurant-coca-at-subang-parade/
18. http://www.suanie.net/2008/09/03/scrumptious-thai-food-coca-restaurant/
19. http://food-4-thot.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-restaurant-subang-parade.html
20. http://www.haveyoueaten.net/2008/07/03/coca-restaurants-not-just-steamboat-but-thai-food-too/
21. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-steamboat-buffet-contest-submit-comment-and-win/
22. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-restaurant-seafood-steamboat-buffet-review/
23. http://cheeserland.com/2008/02/this-is-so-cheesy/
24. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/03/21/a-date-at-coca/
25. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/02/13/valentines-day-surprise/

These are really a lot. I think I miss out 1 or 2 blogs. I can't find it.. Any food bloggers who are around coincidently bumping into this site, if I miss you, just drop me a comment.

Trying

This is what I found from the net:-

7 Habits of People Losing Weights and Keeping It OFF Permanently!


1) Expect failure, but keep trying
I'm still trying...

2) Don't deny yourself
I'm not denying

3) Weigh yourself often
I'm doing this right!!

4) Exercise regularly
If only my heart listen to my head...

5) Find ways to add little bits of physical activity into your daily routine
Still trying too...

6) Eat a high carbohydrate, low fat diet
Am trying very hard...

7) Eat about five meals a day starting with breakfast
hmmm.. not much time though............

- from "CNN Presents: Fat Chance" based on research by Dr. Jim Hill, Director, Center for Human Nutrition, University of Colorado


Well, what can I say. I'm trying!

Start afresh

It had been a couple of months I had been trying very hard to loose those weights after stopping my gym workout. I know that I still do not put on my 101% best yet but i'm still trying. With so many temptations to dinners, invitation parties and events doesn't justify the reasons that I should be loosing weight. Well, the good thing about me is I am forever trying. I knew that I had done that, been there and going back to weight I wanted shouldn't be any problems.

Perseverance is the key. Determination and stubborness are the key on losing weight. I had actually started yesterday, to try to control my food intake and start to go to gym. I did an hour of workout, my effort rating is 35%. I know it's not the maximum but at least I have to start somewhere. Furthermore, with not working out for 6 months while pilling up at least 6kgs/13.2lbs, it is just not justifiable. I know, I know, it's just plain silly excuse and I shouldn't be doing it but I'm couldn't help it.

Went to gym yesterday, was a good start. This morning, I took a good morning walk with my dad at the park is a good start. Although my muscles hurt from yesterday's work out I still persisted. My knees hurt as well.. but still I persisted.

Food?!?! How about food? I'm a dessert person, give me chocolate, ice cream yeah, anytime but I'm trying very hard. Yes, taking in control of what I had eating is also a good start. I'm selective with what I put in my mouth... Yes, I need to do some grocery shopping too as the food at home are totally not healthy at all... Seriously!


Current Weight : 66kg / 145.2lbs
Target Weight : 58kg / 127.6lbs
Total Weight Loss to Achieve : 8kg / 17.6lbs
Target every month 2kgs /4.4lbs

Life during unemployment

Today is the third day after my unofficial last day. Life has been fun. A friend came back from Singapore for a week of holiday... So we spend two days of window shopping. Nope, it's shopping for us.. hee =)

We went to Curve for our first day. We walked around, waited for her to do her IPL, ate some german dinner @ Bavarian and watched Marley and I. Basically, it was a lot of catching up. It was FUN!

On the second day, we went to Sungei Wang shopping, ate at Jalan Alor, continued shopping, went back to Jalan Alor to buy fried fritters, and shopping again..

I felt like those rich tais tais going out on a weekday shopping. The feeling was so different but nice.... I wish we can do this more often!

Today, doing nothing much, went to gym to work out.. My first session, torturing, period.

Joyeux anniversaire!

Happy Birthday! Many greetings and wishes either via sms or facebook. I'm turning 31 today. Let me rephrase, I am 31 today. Birthday is suppose to be a happy ocassion where one celebrate it either with friends and family and love ones. Unfortunately, I don't feel happy at all.

A couple of days ago, I was looking forward for today. I even have the intention to post some birthday wishes I have in mind.

Something is troubling me..

I tendered resignation, and now still waiting whether is it possible for the co to release me earlier.. I really hope that they do. I have strong intuition that they will make things difficult for me. They would not let me off so easily. They will with held my pay and will not release me earlier. Why would a company do that? Don't they are afraid that they may have an employee who may wants to sabotage the company. No point holding on to someone where their heart is no longer with the company, right? sigh...
Update: The company decided to release me on the 31st March 2009 earlier then I expected. I know I should be happy but I feel disappointed.

I had made choices that I do not want to make. I''m feeling very bad right now in my heart...

I really don't feel happy at all eventhough it's my birthday.