Unexpected event

I have so many things to post but let talk about the unexpected event.

I'm 4 months into the job, and the things I've been doing has not been better. Initially, when I joined the company, I was offered Channel Manager. Eventually, a colleague had resigned when I was with the company for 2 or 3 days. So, immediately I was assigned to be a Product Manager replacing the vacancy. Work had been tough on me as I never handled any product before.

Two days ago, after coming back from a 2 days of sick leave, I was asked to see the MD. I was caught by surprised. He told me that the company is going through restructuring and I am asked to go end of the month. Of course with compensation of a month's salary. Reason being, the company no longer need a PM. All PM's work will be handled by the regional, and those who stayed are handling channel. I felt the company me treated me so unfair. I was employed as a CM, but given a PM's job. Now, the organization is going through restructuring, they don't need a PM anymore and I asked me to leave. Hello, remember I was employed as a CM. You need a CM so ain't I a CM but doing a PM's job. I find it really ridiculous.

I'm not the only one. So basically for the PMs, meaning me and another colleague are asked to leave and being offer a package. For her, looks like she wants the VSS but to me, eventhough I'm not happy with the job I still want to give it a chance.

Asking us to leave the company and Yet, they are employing some Management Trainee's role doing a CM. I don't really understand what does the company wants to do...

Anyway, after discussion with my good samaritan boss, and conversation with him and the MD, it is agreeable that I'll work till end of Oct plus the additional 1 month compensation. At least, I can buy some time to look for a job.

I had not told anyone else, not even the family and the bf. I will wait till I find a job then I'll tell them.

I had been very down for the past two days because of the unexpected event. On the day itself, me and my colleagues went out for a good jap lunch. I ordered a green tea ice cream dessert to satisfy my "downness". The bill cost about RM200. I had been doing things out of the ordinary recently. Usually after work, I will head straight home, but on that day I didn't went home. Instead, I went to the bf's house and bought some food stuff from pasar malam as dinner. Today, still feeling down, immediately after work, I went to the night market for a walk and dinner..

Guess what I bought myself?? Some pretty little hair clips for fun....

Tomorrow, the marketing team are basically not working. We are heading to FHM at KLCC.

Tactical Meeting

It's the tactical meeting for all the sales and marketing personnel in Unilever. The whole theme is military holding on to the believe 'Command and Conquer'. To me, it's more of fire fighting internally rather than fire fighting in the battlefield among the other competitors. Sad isn't it spending the time and effort among one another rather than focusing on enemy.

Lunch time moment! My colleagues and me

The whole group with military attire. For the marketing dept, it's FBI. In full, it's follow boss's instruction!! So obedient!

No Longer Happy

I'm no longer happy with what I'm doing any more. I do not have the passion for it. However, in everyone's opinion it is a good a big company accompany with potential in developing my career path. Shall I stay on just because of everyone or I do something I am passionate of?

3 months

Well, life have been hectic for me for the past 3 months. Working life in Unilever is stressful coupled with load of reports to submit with datelines as well plus meetings and meeting one after another. No life besides work.. Sad.

No more going to gym, just work...

I had been working from morning to 9 or 10pm latest.
I had taken mcs for at least 4 to 5 days for the passed 3 months.
Sad, isn't it.

Anxiety breakdown. Mild depression seizure. Sigh....

I want my life back!!

1st day of work!

I started work on the 1st of April, yeap it was April Fool's Day.

Guess what, my new colleagues pull a prank on me by calling each other different names. I only realised it after lunch...

Another thing was, they placed 3 bets on me... 1st will I be wearing pants or skirt, the second was how old am I and the last one is am I single or married... Some win and some looses....

Haha... wacky colleagues I have here... overstressed I guess.

Recap in my last work

Well, this one of the things that I wanted to do during my transition to a new job. I wanted a list of all the reviews and some contests that I had done for my ex company. To all my food bloggers who had agreed to eat at the restaurant thank you all. It's for my memoirs..

From the most recent reviews:-

1. http://yilinglim.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-steamboat-restaurant.html
2. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant.html
3. http://www.suanie.net/2009/03/16/coca-steamboat-meal/
4. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-rm-150-contest-winners.html
5. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/01/contest-3-pairs-of-coca-steamboat-set-meal-for-two-worth-rm-150-each-up-for-grabs.html
6. http://www.suanie.net/2009/01/15/coca-restaurant-cny-giveaway-win-a-steamboat-set-meal-for-2-worth-rm150/
7. http://bigboysoven.blogspot.com/2009/03/coca-restaurant-subang-parade-discovery.html
8. http://thenomadgourmand.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-more-than-just.html
9. http://www.foodpoi.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-at-subang-parade-thai-food/
10. http://www.foodstreet.com.my/food-street/bpage.s?by=Coca+Restaurant&bid=112
11. http://alilfatmonkey.blogspot.com/search/label/Subang%20Jaya
12. http://drownedglassdua.blogspot.com/2008/11/stuffed-pig-and-things-they-stuffed-me.html
13. http://ipohwav3.wordpress.com/2008/11/27/coca-steamboat-subang-parade/
14. http://kampungboycitygal.com/?p=414
15. http://cumidanciki.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-means-kekou-means-appetizing_29.html
16. http://timothytiah.blogspot.com/2008/09/when-you-eat-with-bloggers.html
17. http://kyspeaks.com/2008/09/08/ky-eats-restaurant-coca-at-subang-parade/
18. http://www.suanie.net/2008/09/03/scrumptious-thai-food-coca-restaurant/
19. http://food-4-thot.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-restaurant-subang-parade.html
20. http://www.haveyoueaten.net/2008/07/03/coca-restaurants-not-just-steamboat-but-thai-food-too/
21. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-steamboat-buffet-contest-submit-comment-and-win/
22. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-restaurant-seafood-steamboat-buffet-review/
23. http://cheeserland.com/2008/02/this-is-so-cheesy/
24. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/03/21/a-date-at-coca/
25. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/02/13/valentines-day-surprise/

These are really a lot. I think I miss out 1 or 2 blogs. I can't find it.. Any food bloggers who are around coincidently bumping into this site, if I miss you, just drop me a comment.

Joyeux anniversaire!

Happy Birthday! Many greetings and wishes either via sms or facebook. I'm turning 31 today. Let me rephrase, I am 31 today. Birthday is suppose to be a happy ocassion where one celebrate it either with friends and family and love ones. Unfortunately, I don't feel happy at all.

A couple of days ago, I was looking forward for today. I even have the intention to post some birthday wishes I have in mind.

Something is troubling me..

I tendered resignation, and now still waiting whether is it possible for the co to release me earlier.. I really hope that they do. I have strong intuition that they will make things difficult for me. They would not let me off so easily. They will with held my pay and will not release me earlier. Why would a company do that? Don't they are afraid that they may have an employee who may wants to sabotage the company. No point holding on to someone where their heart is no longer with the company, right? sigh...
Update: The company decided to release me on the 31st March 2009 earlier then I expected. I know I should be happy but I feel disappointed.

I had made choices that I do not want to make. I''m feeling very bad right now in my heart...

I really don't feel happy at all eventhough it's my birthday.

grateful

Finally, after 6 weeks of job hunting, an offer had came in. Had been to 3 second interviews but only one came back. PW had even asked me to go for a third interview but I didn't. I realised that the beauty line was never for me. Food and beverage is always my passion. I attended CJ's second interview but no news. U is the one being offered.

Initially, I was hoping very much to go into U because it is a big mnc. U is a reputable company which will add value to my profile. It will help me in the future. My sis's bf had an offer, and even my sis had an offer. I want an offer too. Then again, it is the profile that I'm going to be responsible which makes me hesitates. I am grateful. I am, really am!

When I received the news, that they had selected me. I was jumping with joy. I want to leave the current dreaded place.

Well, I could say in general the pay package is good enough for me. I'm happy with what they had offered.

Now, I'm to wait for my offer letter. They may call me to collect it even today!
Nice....

I'm looking forward to work in U eventhough, I'm not really into the profile that I'm going to be responsible of, but I'll do my best. I am challenging myself to it.

For a better future....

c'est la vie!

Life can be very cruel.
Life can be very unfair.
Life can treat you badly.
C'est la vie!

Well, to some people it has been a bed of roses, they just had the lady of luck by their side taking things for granted...

For instance, my sis had been very lucky on her career path. After graduating with a master certificate, she had been offered a job in Klang working with a public listed company. I would said her pay was good among her friends who had same qualification and studying the same course. They are getting much lower then what she is getting. Every year, the company had given her at least 4 months bonus every year and yet she complaints! Never in my life, throughout 11 years of working never... Let me said this again, I NEVER received a 4 months bonus... well, ....

Now, she got another offer, eventhough is this dark and gloomy economy, mind you... yes, she got a better offer and yet higher paid salary.. The other day, the hr from her new company, just called and said they are offering RM300 higher then what they are offering her before.... I was like WTF!!!

What can I said? She is just damn lucky lady. I'm not envious of her, happy for her the matter of fact..

Guess what, her boyfriend had also just been offered another j0b with higher salary and better future...

Her bf got!! She also got!! Why I don't have?!?!?!? I want it too!!!!!

Life is so unfair... Well, that's life babe!

career movement

My career movement for the company will be stagnant for the next two years. Of course, it is due to the unstableness of the economy of the country. Other neighbouring countries are deeply effected too.

I had tried my very best to propose to my boss to advertise in the papers to continue on the brand's awareness but unfortunately each time, he decline. Basically from what ever I had proposed, even with a very good affordable package offered by the media owners. He rejected and prefer to invest the money in doing good the restaurants.

For me, my expectation for the company, whatever he had promised no longer happening. All talk and no action for the next two years.

Basicaly it's pretty monotanous for me. Whatever, marketing plan that I would intended to propose will make me think twice before submitting to him basically for approval. Why waste time, when you know it is not going to happen, right. Nevertheless, I still tried..

While waiting for the grass to turn greener, I had to think for myself. I can't keep on staying in this company where empty promises are meant to be broken.

I had attended quite a number of interviews :-
1. 22th Jan, Thurs Mandom - fmcg
2. 5th Feb, Thurs Popular - book
3. 12th Feb, Thurs Philipwain - beauty

Unfortunately, none of it was successful,
However, I'm still keeping my finger crossed for the upcoming interviews arranged for the coming week
1. 23th Feb, Mon Tangs - retail
2. 24th Feb, Tues Unilever - fmcg
3. 25th Feb, Wed Aspac - fnb

I'm praying very hard that I can leave the very gloomy place as soon as possible, with no friends but foes unfortunately to accompany throughout the past few weeks of working...

oh, please end my misery.. I do not want to ask for more, just a place for me to work happily. No more expectation cause it brings nothing but disappointment

my heart is uneasy

Everything I do right now, I do it with extra extra care. I have always being careless, but while working I will be extra careful. It is not eye for detail. Meticulous you could say that I am. I will be extra careful with every single item. Hence, the feeling of wanting to do something out of the box deter me from doing so. I'm trying to avoid any future problem and even fault finding and blame which will against me. I am worry. My heart is very uneasy.

I have seen how the situation are when faults finding with every single thing you do eventhough what you have in mind is purely for the benefit of the company. Yet, there are always faults and faults and blames for doing something that you didn't do. Getting framed for something which you didn't do is not worth while. I do not want to have such things to happen to me...

My heart is very uneasy. My heart is concerned with what I am doing... Work is no longer the same...

Nightmare

It happened on Tuesday, i was having lunch with a friend when suddenly my colleague interupted our lunch.
She said, 'He is goned!'

I was dumbfounded, stunned. Never did i ever expected such thing to happen. It was a nightmare....

I hope that I will wake up from this nightmare.

Moody Day

Thanks to him again! What again?!?!?! My whole day was spoilt.

I had argument with him just on some silly petty stuffs...

Imagine this coming out from a male... ok, accountant is petty... Nope, I don't care and I don't think that he is a qualified accountant.. He is just a pathetic male working in a company too long about 9 years or more... hungry drive for power and authority.. and miser too!!

I'm Right!

I'm bloody right!! He is really fault finding with me...

Damn you! @%$#^!@%$#&!@$

Dark Clouds

I thought retail therapy does help, so I went to Metrojaya Presales.. Conclusion: No, it doesn't work!

After yesterday, things are not as cheery as before... I'm not as happy before... I'm more moody then usual.... my temper flared easily.

Siamese Twins

I hate the phrase "......Siamese Twins." I never expected such a crude sentence from some one I respected very much... Well, I don't blame you.

'You better watch out!' I have to remind myself about it 24/7 so not to get myself burnt! Someone is looking for trouble and I have to get myself be extremely cautious and careful so not to get burnt.

Trust and betrayed....

No news

hmmm.. after for so many days. There is still no news from the company. I am pretty skeptical about my chances. Since I blew it up.. Anyway, will still be looking for opportunities out there.

I had also faxed a resume to the company next door, but no news from them yet. Hopefully I will heard from him soon.

It is not that I don't like the job I'm doing right now. It is just that I will be a new colleague coming into the department pretty soon and my salary sucks big time.. my boss is still bearable to tell you the truth but of course one will want both a good job and a good salary.

Ridiculous, right.

Carry my hopes high!

More Lies

At 11.45 am, I grab my handbag quickly and rushed downstair. I need to catch a interview at 12noon same place. I informed the receptionist that I am going to the bank. I received the call yesterday and asked to attend a second interview. In less than 5 minutes, I was in a cab heading to town.. Fancy sharing a cab with other people... I couldn't be bother as I was rushing for time..

Back to the story, I reached in time. I attended the interview. I did badly in the interview.. He asked a lot about marketing questions but I was speechless. I don't seems to impress him. Pretty blew up.. I could said.

Before finishing the interview, he passed a list of questions/ scenarios for me to answer.. It is difficult.. I didn't finished up the questions. I thought some excuses saying that office need me urgently, I got to go.. funny. I can cracked out a excuse like that...

After saying thank you to him, I called her, asked to her whereabouts as it is lunch hour, and my stomach is rumbling. To think about it, maybe I am hungry that's why I can't think...

Lied again, I went to the bank to settle some stuffs....


Never heard from the company anymore.....

Lies

It is a Friday afternoon, and after lunch with my colleague. I asked her to drop me off at the side of the road so that I can get to town to do a errand for my boss. Actually, it is for a interview. Of course without her knowledge, as she is the company's Human Resource Manager. I won't tell her that I'm heading to town for a interview. I told her that I need to go to town to run some errands for my boss. It was a lied. I had to attend for a interview in a company's for a Marketing position. I reached town and look for the placed. It took me about 20 minutes to fill up the application form and I was called into the HR room for a interview. It went pretty well till my phone kept on ringing... It rang and rang non stop till I finished my interview, thank goodness it was on a silent mode. I was distracted through out the interview. I hope he won't notice it. It went very smoothly and I have to go for another interview to confirm and discuss for the final details. This is still to be advised.


My boss was the one calling me non stop. Frantically, I could said about 10 times. He is plain irritating. I called him and told him that I was not feeling well and was in the doc's room for the past half an hour. Imagine that, all this while I was attending a interview behind his back... ha.. ha..After the putting an end to the conversation, I received another called from the HR Manager. She asked me about my whereabouts.. Things are explained that I was on a errand to get things done for my boss. I gather that he called the office and was looking for me high and low searching everywhere for me. He make a big hoo has about it and scolded both the receptionist. He spoke t the HR Manager and asking for me. Geez..pain in the ass.


I went back to the office. I spoke to the HR Manager, complaining about my boss.. being boss asking me going out to do his errands but forgets all about it as usual. Complaints and complaints ... non stop... ha ha


I got a cheek to lie to my boss and her.

New arrangement

No news from the interview. So looks like I have to stay on with what I'm currently doing.

As I had determine to stay on with the job, my boss had made some special arrangement. To bring in a new colleague. What a disappointment. All the hard work is flushed down the toilet bowl for the whole year. He is going to be the asst manager. What a joke! But that's the reality and I have to face it.

All the emotion turmoil rumbled in my head for the whole weeks. It has been a shitty week. Have been thinking to change job, but I like what I am currently doing. I had asked around for opinion and most common advise is the "wait and see position".hmmm....

So I shall wait and see till this end of March...



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