Life has been pretty busy lately...I didn't blog lately.. Joining the gym had taken much of moi time. This leads the gym as my second home..
First home is the "office"
Second home is the "gym"
Third home is the "home"
I had been pretty active that I goes to gym almost every day for the past few months. I started slowly in February. The pace start to pick up in May. I do enjoy my classes. I'm glad that I had become the gym's member at least it take up most of my time. On the contrarary, I don't have to feel bored too... Besides that, I got to know more people there. Get to loose a few pounds, actually more than that. It is a great achievement especially after sweating out in classes like Bodystep, Bodycombat, Bodypump and RPM. What matters most is I love the classes there.. Phew .. Really can sweat it out...
Sooner or later I'm becoming exerciseholics...
New to Exerciseholics... Woo hooo
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
misintrepretation
I misintrepretated...
Well, life can be that bad .. I cannot imagine if it is really the truth.. I would called it imagination. The imagination is so torturing, what if it is the real thing.. I dare not think of the consequence.
I am trapped in the quicksand. It is too late to pull myself up.. I will wait till it slowly drained me out.
Souless
Well, life can be that bad .. I cannot imagine if it is really the truth.. I would called it imagination. The imagination is so torturing, what if it is the real thing.. I dare not think of the consequence.
I am trapped in the quicksand. It is too late to pull myself up.. I will wait till it slowly drained me out.
Souless
Monday, March 21, 2005
Love and Hatred
Yesterday night was a difficult night for me. I can't sleep. Tossed and turned throughout the nights.
Today, my feelings for the day had gone from bad to worst... I can feel my eyes swollen from the crying I had. The clouds are gloomy.. The sky look greyish to me.. Everything is so dull and unattractive..
Why must I torture myself??? After all the things I had been through for the passed days. Is it worth the trouble making myself so miserable.
There is mix feelings in me... A sec it is hatred burning in my eyes and another sec, my heart was aching.. How could such feelings exist?? I hate the hatred you had caused me. I hate my love for you as my heart is still there for you... Thinking of you. Hopes where I dare not believed in is still there in me. I pray hard with time can help me to unleash these feelings
Down with missing love. Down with hatred that instilled in me. Love and hate at the same time.
Today, my feelings for the day had gone from bad to worst... I can feel my eyes swollen from the crying I had. The clouds are gloomy.. The sky look greyish to me.. Everything is so dull and unattractive..
Why must I torture myself??? After all the things I had been through for the passed days. Is it worth the trouble making myself so miserable.
There is mix feelings in me... A sec it is hatred burning in my eyes and another sec, my heart was aching.. How could such feelings exist?? I hate the hatred you had caused me. I hate my love for you as my heart is still there for you... Thinking of you. Hopes where I dare not believed in is still there in me. I pray hard with time can help me to unleash these feelings
Down with missing love. Down with hatred that instilled in me. Love and hate at the same time.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Something missing in life
It had been two days. It felt like 2 years. Time passed by very slowly.
I can feel the emptiness in me. There is something missing in me for the past two days. Tears come and go very frequently. It is a torture waiting. I had been checking my phone, hoping and hoping.. for something.....but still it is all but silence..
It is just the matter of getting used to the emptiness in my heart...I hope the torture will end soon...
I can feel the emptiness in me. There is something missing in me for the past two days. Tears come and go very frequently. It is a torture waiting. I had been checking my phone, hoping and hoping.. for something.....but still it is all but silence..
It is just the matter of getting used to the emptiness in my heart...I hope the torture will end soon...
Saturday, February 26, 2005
No news
hmmm.. after for so many days. There is still no news from the company. I am pretty skeptical about my chances. Since I blew it up.. Anyway, will still be looking for opportunities out there.
I had also faxed a resume to the company next door, but no news from them yet. Hopefully I will heard from him soon.
It is not that I don't like the job I'm doing right now. It is just that I will be a new colleague coming into the department pretty soon and my salary sucks big time.. my boss is still bearable to tell you the truth but of course one will want both a good job and a good salary.
Ridiculous, right.
Carry my hopes high!
I had also faxed a resume to the company next door, but no news from them yet. Hopefully I will heard from him soon.
It is not that I don't like the job I'm doing right now. It is just that I will be a new colleague coming into the department pretty soon and my salary sucks big time.. my boss is still bearable to tell you the truth but of course one will want both a good job and a good salary.
Ridiculous, right.
Carry my hopes high!
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
More Lies
At 11.45 am, I grab my handbag quickly and rushed downstair. I need to catch a interview at 12noon same place. I informed the receptionist that I am going to the bank. I received the call yesterday and asked to attend a second interview. In less than 5 minutes, I was in a cab heading to town.. Fancy sharing a cab with other people... I couldn't be bother as I was rushing for time..
Back to the story, I reached in time. I attended the interview. I did badly in the interview.. He asked a lot about marketing questions but I was speechless. I don't seems to impress him. Pretty blew up.. I could said.
Before finishing the interview, he passed a list of questions/ scenarios for me to answer.. It is difficult.. I didn't finished up the questions. I thought some excuses saying that office need me urgently, I got to go.. funny. I can cracked out a excuse like that...
After saying thank you to him, I called her, asked to her whereabouts as it is lunch hour, and my stomach is rumbling. To think about it, maybe I am hungry that's why I can't think...
Lied again, I went to the bank to settle some stuffs....
Never heard from the company anymore.....
Back to the story, I reached in time. I attended the interview. I did badly in the interview.. He asked a lot about marketing questions but I was speechless. I don't seems to impress him. Pretty blew up.. I could said.
Before finishing the interview, he passed a list of questions/ scenarios for me to answer.. It is difficult.. I didn't finished up the questions. I thought some excuses saying that office need me urgently, I got to go.. funny. I can cracked out a excuse like that...
After saying thank you to him, I called her, asked to her whereabouts as it is lunch hour, and my stomach is rumbling. To think about it, maybe I am hungry that's why I can't think...
Lied again, I went to the bank to settle some stuffs....
Never heard from the company anymore.....
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Lies
It is a Friday afternoon, and after lunch with my colleague. I asked her to drop me off at the side of the road so that I can get to town to do a errand for my boss. Actually, it is for a interview. Of course without her knowledge, as she is the company's Human Resource Manager. I won't tell her that I'm heading to town for a interview. I told her that I need to go to town to run some errands for my boss. It was a lied. I had to attend for a interview in a company's for a Marketing position. I reached town and look for the placed. It took me about 20 minutes to fill up the application form and I was called into the HR room for a interview. It went pretty well till my phone kept on ringing... It rang and rang non stop till I finished my interview, thank goodness it was on a silent mode. I was distracted through out the interview. I hope he won't notice it. It went very smoothly and I have to go for another interview to confirm and discuss for the final details. This is still to be advised.
My boss was the one calling me non stop. Frantically, I could said about 10 times. He is plain irritating. I called him and told him that I was not feeling well and was in the doc's room for the past half an hour. Imagine that, all this while I was attending a interview behind his back... ha.. ha..After the putting an end to the conversation, I received another called from the HR Manager. She asked me about my whereabouts.. Things are explained that I was on a errand to get things done for my boss. I gather that he called the office and was looking for me high and low searching everywhere for me. He make a big hoo has about it and scolded both the receptionist. He spoke t the HR Manager and asking for me. Geez..pain in the ass.
I went back to the office. I spoke to the HR Manager, complaining about my boss.. being boss asking me going out to do his errands but forgets all about it as usual. Complaints and complaints ... non stop... ha ha
I got a cheek to lie to my boss and her.
My boss was the one calling me non stop. Frantically, I could said about 10 times. He is plain irritating. I called him and told him that I was not feeling well and was in the doc's room for the past half an hour. Imagine that, all this while I was attending a interview behind his back... ha.. ha..After the putting an end to the conversation, I received another called from the HR Manager. She asked me about my whereabouts.. Things are explained that I was on a errand to get things done for my boss. I gather that he called the office and was looking for me high and low searching everywhere for me. He make a big hoo has about it and scolded both the receptionist. He spoke t the HR Manager and asking for me. Geez..pain in the ass.
I went back to the office. I spoke to the HR Manager, complaining about my boss.. being boss asking me going out to do his errands but forgets all about it as usual. Complaints and complaints ... non stop... ha ha
I got a cheek to lie to my boss and her.
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
The meaning
A misterious gal is in my boss's office... who is she? She is young and moderate looking gal. While I am busy wondering who is she, my boss calls me into his office. She is so and so. She will be joining our team. Smilling, I shake my hand with hers, but deep inside my heart it is like a knife is stabbed into my heart.
Who is she? How come I never heard anything about anybody joining the department. What does she has that I don't have? Will she be taking over my job? Hundreds and thousand unanswered questions? I felt so insecure. I am dispensable to the department... Poof.. I woke up. And realise it is a dream. The uneasiness is still there, but i tried to get back to my sleep as today I still need to go the office.
What does the dream meants?
Who is she? How come I never heard anything about anybody joining the department. What does she has that I don't have? Will she be taking over my job? Hundreds and thousand unanswered questions? I felt so insecure. I am dispensable to the department... Poof.. I woke up. And realise it is a dream. The uneasiness is still there, but i tried to get back to my sleep as today I still need to go the office.
What does the dream meants?
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