Short Chapters in Life

It has been almost 1 and half years since I blogged. So many things had happened and in another four months 2011 will end. I want to be more happy, contented and grateful with what is going to happen, soon to happen and will happen.

A glance at what things that had happened:-

1. I had been in and out of the job
2. I had registered and officially becoming someone's wife, daughter in law and sister in law
3. I had become a private tutor full time and now turning back to part time up to now
4. I had find myself a job and been working since then
5. I had been to Hokkaido, Japan with the co for a week during the winter 2010
6. I had been to Seoul, South Korea for a week to visit the husband

Is that a lot for 1 and half a year.. nope I don't think so.

Demoralize

Period. I know very negative.

Unfortunate

I am looking forward for the interview tomorrow. However, after calling to HR dept was disappointed. They made a mistake. They thought I did not went for the interview last week. For me, I thought they called me for the second interview..

They are still doing the selection for the first round till Jan 5th. From the feedback, it look positive. I am keeping my finger crossed, but as the day gone by, my spirits is getting lower and lower...

I am still hoping for a miracle to happen.......

Drowning

I felt very disappointed as the days go by.. it's bye bye 2009 and hello 2010.

Basically, I do not know what I have done in 2009.
I hate it.

3rd day of unemployment

I had finished serving the last day of the company and here I am ..

3rd day at home, while every one is heading to work.

I woke up about 9 am plus, had breakfast at 10 am plus, send a few emails out, check facebook then went to gym for 4 - 5 hours only 1 hour of bodystep, the rest are sauna steam taking bath, doing nothing , came home about 7 plus, had dinner and here I am facebook, checking email and watching tvb series at the same time....

Seriously worry

In another 3 weeks, I will be officially out of job. Both my parents had already knew about it. Till now, I had been to quite a number of interview and yet neither one of it came back for a second interview. I am getting really worry. If I still do not get a job by end of this month what will become of me?

Every one will not be changing job as most of them are waiting for the bonus before they plan to move on. It's worrysome. I will be unemployed in another 3 to 4 months. What will become of me? I know I shouldn't be discouraged, but I can't help it. Who would ever figure out such things happened? Then again, with the current situation restructuring is not unusual.

I have to have hope that I will get a job soon. Be positive. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. However, I dare not put my hope too high if not I will be very disappointed..

Everyday, I have been wasting my time going to office, seriously doing nothing. Looking left and looking right. Doing nothing. I do not want to go anywhere at all. When I am at home, I just stayed in my room watching tv series. I am really worry.. I am slowly crawling into my own shell and stay in there forever.....

Oh please, I pray to you, please please let me have a job soon... I am depressed.

My Book List

I am sure most of you have heard of BBC’s must read book list. It seems that the average person would have read 6 out of the 100 listed books below. The red highlighted are those that I have not read. Those that I had watched, I will consider read too!! Ha Ha.. Cheat!

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien (I watched the movie)
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling (I watched the movie)
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee ( I read halfway and I never got to continue it)
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë (Finally, a book that I had read and I forgotten what's it about)
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens ( I forgot about the content too!)
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott (I read this too, one of my favourites!)
19. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
22. Harry Potter And The Philosopher’s Stone, JK Rowling (I watched the movie)
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling (I watched the movie)
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling (I watched the movie)
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D’Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll (I watched the cartoon)
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery ( I watched this, one of my fav!)
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher

51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell (I thk I had watched this)
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden (I watched this)
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dicken
s64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones’s Diary, Helen Fielding (I watched this)
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot (I watched this)
100. Midnight’s Children, Salman Rushdie


Look like I watched movie more than I read... haha. How about you?

Something Cute

I am not the usual me nowadays.. I have been doing a lot of stuffs out of the ordinary which I don't do usually.


Eg. I won't be tempted to buy any cutie stuffs sold in the market but this time I did.


I bought something very cute during my visit to the night market last saturday.


Ta daaa!!!









Cute little pumpkin, bunny rabbit and porcupine bun. Each contain custard, lotus paste and pandan leave paste...


Ordinary taste but I bought it because it's cute....


Cute or not??

A piece of blank paper

I'm not happy. I want to leave earlier. I still have no job. How?

worry

I'm getting worry. A week has passed after the news. My family and the bf still doesn't know about my current situation.
I'm worry that I couldn't get a job by the time. What would happen to me? I still has commitment. My house, my car and my family! I do not know what will happened to me if I have no job. I am really worry.......

Unexpected event

I have so many things to post but let talk about the unexpected event.

I'm 4 months into the job, and the things I've been doing has not been better. Initially, when I joined the company, I was offered Channel Manager. Eventually, a colleague had resigned when I was with the company for 2 or 3 days. So, immediately I was assigned to be a Product Manager replacing the vacancy. Work had been tough on me as I never handled any product before.

Two days ago, after coming back from a 2 days of sick leave, I was asked to see the MD. I was caught by surprised. He told me that the company is going through restructuring and I am asked to go end of the month. Of course with compensation of a month's salary. Reason being, the company no longer need a PM. All PM's work will be handled by the regional, and those who stayed are handling channel. I felt the company me treated me so unfair. I was employed as a CM, but given a PM's job. Now, the organization is going through restructuring, they don't need a PM anymore and I asked me to leave. Hello, remember I was employed as a CM. You need a CM so ain't I a CM but doing a PM's job. I find it really ridiculous.

I'm not the only one. So basically for the PMs, meaning me and another colleague are asked to leave and being offer a package. For her, looks like she wants the VSS but to me, eventhough I'm not happy with the job I still want to give it a chance.

Asking us to leave the company and Yet, they are employing some Management Trainee's role doing a CM. I don't really understand what does the company wants to do...

Anyway, after discussion with my good samaritan boss, and conversation with him and the MD, it is agreeable that I'll work till end of Oct plus the additional 1 month compensation. At least, I can buy some time to look for a job.

I had not told anyone else, not even the family and the bf. I will wait till I find a job then I'll tell them.

I had been very down for the past two days because of the unexpected event. On the day itself, me and my colleagues went out for a good jap lunch. I ordered a green tea ice cream dessert to satisfy my "downness". The bill cost about RM200. I had been doing things out of the ordinary recently. Usually after work, I will head straight home, but on that day I didn't went home. Instead, I went to the bf's house and bought some food stuff from pasar malam as dinner. Today, still feeling down, immediately after work, I went to the night market for a walk and dinner..

Guess what I bought myself?? Some pretty little hair clips for fun....

Tomorrow, the marketing team are basically not working. We are heading to FHM at KLCC.

Tactical Meeting

It's the tactical meeting for all the sales and marketing personnel in Unilever. The whole theme is military holding on to the believe 'Command and Conquer'. To me, it's more of fire fighting internally rather than fire fighting in the battlefield among the other competitors. Sad isn't it spending the time and effort among one another rather than focusing on enemy.

Lunch time moment! My colleagues and me

The whole group with military attire. For the marketing dept, it's FBI. In full, it's follow boss's instruction!! So obedient!

No Longer Happy

I'm no longer happy with what I'm doing any more. I do not have the passion for it. However, in everyone's opinion it is a good a big company accompany with potential in developing my career path. Shall I stay on just because of everyone or I do something I am passionate of?

3 months

Well, life have been hectic for me for the past 3 months. Working life in Unilever is stressful coupled with load of reports to submit with datelines as well plus meetings and meeting one after another. No life besides work.. Sad.

No more going to gym, just work...

I had been working from morning to 9 or 10pm latest.
I had taken mcs for at least 4 to 5 days for the passed 3 months.
Sad, isn't it.

Anxiety breakdown. Mild depression seizure. Sigh....

I want my life back!!

1st day of work!

I started work on the 1st of April, yeap it was April Fool's Day.

Guess what, my new colleagues pull a prank on me by calling each other different names. I only realised it after lunch...

Another thing was, they placed 3 bets on me... 1st will I be wearing pants or skirt, the second was how old am I and the last one is am I single or married... Some win and some looses....

Haha... wacky colleagues I have here... overstressed I guess.

Recap in my last work

Well, this one of the things that I wanted to do during my transition to a new job. I wanted a list of all the reviews and some contests that I had done for my ex company. To all my food bloggers who had agreed to eat at the restaurant thank you all. It's for my memoirs..

From the most recent reviews:-

1. http://yilinglim.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-steamboat-restaurant.html
2. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant.html
3. http://www.suanie.net/2009/03/16/coca-steamboat-meal/
4. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-rm-150-contest-winners.html
5. http://www.sixthseal.com/2009/01/contest-3-pairs-of-coca-steamboat-set-meal-for-two-worth-rm-150-each-up-for-grabs.html
6. http://www.suanie.net/2009/01/15/coca-restaurant-cny-giveaway-win-a-steamboat-set-meal-for-2-worth-rm150/
7. http://bigboysoven.blogspot.com/2009/03/coca-restaurant-subang-parade-discovery.html
8. http://thenomadgourmand.blogspot.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-more-than-just.html
9. http://www.foodpoi.com/2009/02/coca-restaurant-at-subang-parade-thai-food/
10. http://www.foodstreet.com.my/food-street/bpage.s?by=Coca+Restaurant&bid=112
11. http://alilfatmonkey.blogspot.com/search/label/Subang%20Jaya
12. http://drownedglassdua.blogspot.com/2008/11/stuffed-pig-and-things-they-stuffed-me.html
13. http://ipohwav3.wordpress.com/2008/11/27/coca-steamboat-subang-parade/
14. http://kampungboycitygal.com/?p=414
15. http://cumidanciki.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-means-kekou-means-appetizing_29.html
16. http://timothytiah.blogspot.com/2008/09/when-you-eat-with-bloggers.html
17. http://kyspeaks.com/2008/09/08/ky-eats-restaurant-coca-at-subang-parade/
18. http://www.suanie.net/2008/09/03/scrumptious-thai-food-coca-restaurant/
19. http://food-4-thot.blogspot.com/2008/09/coca-restaurant-subang-parade.html
20. http://www.haveyoueaten.net/2008/07/03/coca-restaurants-not-just-steamboat-but-thai-food-too/
21. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-steamboat-buffet-contest-submit-comment-and-win/
22. http://www.vkeong.com/2008/food-drink/coca-restaurant-seafood-steamboat-buffet-review/
23. http://cheeserland.com/2008/02/this-is-so-cheesy/
24. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/03/21/a-date-at-coca/
25. http://www.minishorts.net/2008/02/13/valentines-day-surprise/

These are really a lot. I think I miss out 1 or 2 blogs. I can't find it.. Any food bloggers who are around coincidently bumping into this site, if I miss you, just drop me a comment.

Trying

This is what I found from the net:-

7 Habits of People Losing Weights and Keeping It OFF Permanently!


1) Expect failure, but keep trying
I'm still trying...

2) Don't deny yourself
I'm not denying

3) Weigh yourself often
I'm doing this right!!

4) Exercise regularly
If only my heart listen to my head...

5) Find ways to add little bits of physical activity into your daily routine
Still trying too...

6) Eat a high carbohydrate, low fat diet
Am trying very hard...

7) Eat about five meals a day starting with breakfast
hmmm.. not much time though............

- from "CNN Presents: Fat Chance" based on research by Dr. Jim Hill, Director, Center for Human Nutrition, University of Colorado


Well, what can I say. I'm trying!

Start afresh

It had been a couple of months I had been trying very hard to loose those weights after stopping my gym workout. I know that I still do not put on my 101% best yet but i'm still trying. With so many temptations to dinners, invitation parties and events doesn't justify the reasons that I should be loosing weight. Well, the good thing about me is I am forever trying. I knew that I had done that, been there and going back to weight I wanted shouldn't be any problems.

Perseverance is the key. Determination and stubborness are the key on losing weight. I had actually started yesterday, to try to control my food intake and start to go to gym. I did an hour of workout, my effort rating is 35%. I know it's not the maximum but at least I have to start somewhere. Furthermore, with not working out for 6 months while pilling up at least 6kgs/13.2lbs, it is just not justifiable. I know, I know, it's just plain silly excuse and I shouldn't be doing it but I'm couldn't help it.

Went to gym yesterday, was a good start. This morning, I took a good morning walk with my dad at the park is a good start. Although my muscles hurt from yesterday's work out I still persisted. My knees hurt as well.. but still I persisted.

Food?!?! How about food? I'm a dessert person, give me chocolate, ice cream yeah, anytime but I'm trying very hard. Yes, taking in control of what I had eating is also a good start. I'm selective with what I put in my mouth... Yes, I need to do some grocery shopping too as the food at home are totally not healthy at all... Seriously!


Current Weight : 66kg / 145.2lbs
Target Weight : 58kg / 127.6lbs
Total Weight Loss to Achieve : 8kg / 17.6lbs
Target every month 2kgs /4.4lbs

Life during unemployment

Today is the third day after my unofficial last day. Life has been fun. A friend came back from Singapore for a week of holiday... So we spend two days of window shopping. Nope, it's shopping for us.. hee =)

We went to Curve for our first day. We walked around, waited for her to do her IPL, ate some german dinner @ Bavarian and watched Marley and I. Basically, it was a lot of catching up. It was FUN!

On the second day, we went to Sungei Wang shopping, ate at Jalan Alor, continued shopping, went back to Jalan Alor to buy fried fritters, and shopping again..

I felt like those rich tais tais going out on a weekday shopping. The feeling was so different but nice.... I wish we can do this more often!

Today, doing nothing much, went to gym to work out.. My first session, torturing, period.

Joyeux anniversaire!

Happy Birthday! Many greetings and wishes either via sms or facebook. I'm turning 31 today. Let me rephrase, I am 31 today. Birthday is suppose to be a happy ocassion where one celebrate it either with friends and family and love ones. Unfortunately, I don't feel happy at all.

A couple of days ago, I was looking forward for today. I even have the intention to post some birthday wishes I have in mind.

Something is troubling me..

I tendered resignation, and now still waiting whether is it possible for the co to release me earlier.. I really hope that they do. I have strong intuition that they will make things difficult for me. They would not let me off so easily. They will with held my pay and will not release me earlier. Why would a company do that? Don't they are afraid that they may have an employee who may wants to sabotage the company. No point holding on to someone where their heart is no longer with the company, right? sigh...
Update: The company decided to release me on the 31st March 2009 earlier then I expected. I know I should be happy but I feel disappointed.

I had made choices that I do not want to make. I''m feeling very bad right now in my heart...

I really don't feel happy at all eventhough it's my birthday.